Your smile makes me smile. I’ve always loved your smile. There’s just something about you being happy that makes me feel good. I could be in the worse kind of mood ever and then your smile shows up and instantly I forget about the pain that I’m feeling. I remember when I was upset over my grades, I spent hours crying and cursing myself. You showed up with a bag full of movies and candy. You told me that you hated to see me sad. You said the only tears that I should shed should come from laughing too hard. Then you gave me that smile and told me that I shouldn’t give up. When I saw that, I knew that things would get better. It’s like your smile contains some kind of magic that I need in my life. How do you do it? How do you always make me happy? Want to know what makes me happier, your laugh. Your laugh is music to my ears, it plays on a loop in my head.
It’s like your laugh contains some kind of magic that I need in my life. Hearing it is a blessing. It makes me happy. When I hear it I’m reminded of the time back at your house when we were watching your favorite show. You spent weeks trying to get me to watch it but I always said no. Somehow, someway, I found myself agreeing to watch it. Sometimes I think you have special powers or something. I always find myself agreeing to what you say, even if it is ridiculous. There we were, watching this show. You couldn’t stop laughing, it was amazing. I remember sitting on your floor next to you just smiling and thinking. Thinking, wow this amazingly perfect guy is mine. I can actually say I was truly happy in that moment. The happiest I’ve ever been.
Thinking, wow this amazingly perfect guy is mine. All I think about is you and how much I love you. I’ve never felt this way about someone before. I felt something way back when, back when we were just friends, I didn’t know what it was. I just knew that being just friends with you was something that I couldn’t do. I wanted more. I guess you did too because something special happened. I remember our first date, we went to the movies. During the movie we held hands and you left little kisses on my hands. I remember when you first told me you loved me. That night was beautiful, we went out to dinner then afterwards we went to LOVE Park. We sat and looked at the stars. You played music in the background. “Running Back to You” By Matt Wertz came on and you hummed in my ear while holding me close. I loved being in your arms, I felt safe. I wanted to be in your arms forever. Right before the song went off you whispered in my ear, ‘Either way I’m running back to you, I love you Alexis.” When I’m with you I feel wanted, I feel special. I’m glad that I have you in my life. I love this feeling, it will never go away. I know we aren’t one anymore but that will never stop me from loving you. Hopefully one day in the future, when I have my life together and your crazy busy life has died down a bit; we will become one again. I’m dreaming of that day. Like our song says, “I’m running back to you.”
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