Flipping The Switch

I wish I could turn off my humanity 
You know how they do in that show about the vampires 
When life becomes difficult 
Or, they just had enough 
They flip that little switch in their brain and shut it all off 
Wouldn’t that be great?
Imagine not having emotions 
Everything that makes you human completely stripped away 
Just imagine it – hear me out 
no longer crying to the point where it hurts to breathe 
no more random moments filled with despair
no longer faking a smile then losing all control when alone
no longer feeling heart pounding, blood boiling rage that gets the better of you 
no longer looking in the mirror, hating everything you see
no longer putting others happiness before your own
Does that sound amazing? 
Finally being the best version of yourself 
Waking up every morning and being at peace 
And I mean real peace 
Not that “Well I’m alive” state of mind 
I mean waking up in the morning and truly loving the skin you’re in 
Getting dressed, no longer stressing over how your clothes look on you 
Finally taking matters into your own hands and living the life you’ve always wanted 
Going out and allowing yourself to have a good time 
Living without a care in the world 
Knowing that you are the shit and everyone else is beneath you 
Looking people in the eye, flashing a smile, and saying “I don’t care”
The liberation coursing through your veins once your moral compass vanishes 
Just imagine being in charge of your emotions 
Rather than your emotions being in charge of you 
I’d kill for that.